Time to Face the Music

Fitness testing for 12wbt yesterday. Woot….

Actually it wasn’t that bad. Fiancé and I went to the park and using Map My Run we stepped out 1 km and then I had to run it in the shortest time possible. After that it was as many knee push-ups I could perform without breaking form or pausing, how long could I hold a knee plank, a wall sit and finally how close/far past my toes I am able to reach. Let me tell you – there is room for improvement! Though fiancé says he was proud of me 🙂 . He has never seen me run before and I kind of thought he was going to think it was hilarious (I have no form) but apparently it wasn’t as funny as I thought it was going to be!

Running 1km is hard when you rarely run. I was standing there looking at the field thinking, “yeah, I can run that. Three laps isn’t that far.” Oh man, was it far. 10 metres in I realised I had no idea what I was doing. At the beginning of last year I was attending a boot camp twice a week which involved a lot of running but I seem to have completely lost whatever fitness and running ability those workouts gave me. Oh dear Phillipa, what are we going to do with you? I’ve been given goals to reach for each test when I do it all again in week four and they seem very achievable. I seriously can’t wait for Monday and for all of this to really kick off.

I know the hardest part of all of this will be the mental aspect. I can cook and I do enjoy lots of vegetables and salad so that will be fine… Once I’m into a workout I really enjoy it, especially the absolutely exhausted, know-I-tried-my-hardest jelly legs feeling afterward. But getting out of bed 1.5hrs earlier… Not just eating whatever chocolate or takeaway I feel like as soon as that craving hits me… Getting past that and dealing with it will be so difficult. Just this once. Just this one. Just today. Just until Monday. I’ll eat better next week. This is why I need a forum and accountability.

I am so sick of feeling uncomfortable at the beach and while out with friends. I’m so over not fitting into all of the cute size 12 dresses in my wardrobe. But I don’t want to be a stick. I don’t need to be one of the girls where you can TELL they workout all the time. I don’t need obvious abdominal muscles or perfect thighs or the most amazing arse. I just want to be slim and toned. I NEED to be healthy.

Bring on my new body!



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